(NIV) 1 John 4:12 No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and His love is made complete in us.

Committing and Surrendering

I've been completely stressed out these days.
or maybe, I still am.
So I've been taught, every time these things happen, when things go upside down leave you spinning around, you commit them all to Jesus.

but, I think the best part I've learnt is not just committing, but surrendering.

Difference between committing and surrendering?
committing - to entrust, especially for safekeeping; commend
surrendering - to give oneself up, as into the power of another; submit or yield.
credits to http://www.dictionary.com/

From dictionary.com, we can clearly see what it means to commit.
when you COMMIT, you just merely trust, and you COMMIT something into Jesus's hands.
But when you SURRENDER, you really give Jesus your everything, you submit yourself before Him and just tell Him: Jesus, take control.

I feel that these few weeks it has been rather tormentful, be it spiritually emotionally or physically. I've been so tired these days, and I just feel like leading an aimless life.
Yes, aimless. I feel like just stoning at a vase of flowers, or watching gossip girl 24 hours and just slack my life. ROT AT HOME.

and I've been praying to God, Oh Lord, I commit this this this into your hands, help me please.

and today, finally, the Holy Spirit convicted me...
He told me, do you just want to commit all these tiny things into God's hand, or do you want to completely surrender before Him.

and I was like yes... I've been complaining to God about all these things, committing all my problems into His hands but I believe God wants more than just that.
He is happy that we trust in Him enough to commit our problems to His hands, but thats not it! He wants us to fully surrender our lives to Him.
A complete surrender into His hands and let Jesus take control over our lives.

And now, as I blogged, I'm even more convinced to say,
God, I surrender my life into Your hands.
Deal with it.

Discipline

I'm currently doing work.
Really tired, having aches all over.
Sometimes, I just feel like giving up and runaway.

BUT.

"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a SPIRIT OF POWER, of LOVE and of SELF-DISCIPLINE."
2 Timothy 1:7

and

"No, I BEAT MY BODY and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize."
1 Corinthians 9:27
* act of discipline

so... I'm going to learn from Apostle Paul and discipline my body to do my work.
anyway, I don't have much of a choice.
but its good to know that God is with me, and He is motivating me with His words. :D


back to work.

Choices

Everyday in life we make choices.
I thank God for giving us free will.

In Proverbs 14: we see that in life there are many choices we can make.
We can choose to be foolish and sin, or we can choose to be righteous and walk with God, and do His will.

I'm given a choice.
I can choose to be like the past, and be an escapee, just escape from all the problems and trust me, ITS EASIER.
or
I can choose to have a breakthrough (BreakThru oeiiii HAHA.), and totally take a step of FAITH and COURAGE to do what is necessary.

I haven't been able to sleep well the past few nights. All that I can think of is how life is so horrible with all these decisions needed to be made and how I'm so indecisive.
And I think about why is it that people have to do all these things which makes me so oppressed, and why is it I am such a coward that I don't dare to speak for myself, and suppress all my emotions.
No matter how many chocolates I ate it just ain't no use manz. :/

And this very morning, thank God for waking me up.
Pastor Jimmy called me, but it was unintentional. Somehow his mobile called me.
So later, the unintentional call became intentional.
He talked to me about how I have to decide things myself, and about porcelein vases and expensive vases which totally made sense la.

And I start to recall and think about how God is so good to me...
Of all people, He chose ME to work at GLC, to put me in all these predicaments so that I can learn!
And when He knows I am unable to manage, He send all His faithful servants to talk to me.
I thank God for Tingjie, for her unwavering support and advices in everything I do. It definitely brought me the comfort and motivation that I need to get through the day.
I thank God for Pastor, for his wisdom never once fails to hit me right in my face.

And I thank God, for teaching me and reminding me all the verses that once spoke into my life and is now ready for application.
Previously, Tingjie asked me to do QT on Hebrews. and now, God reminds me of all the verses, to give me that support I need.

"Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."
So we may say with confidence, "THE LORD IS MY HELPER; I WILL NOT BE AFRAID. WHAT CAN MAN DO TO ME?"
Hebrews 13:5-6

Seriously, all my previous fears were TOTALLY redundant.
I have the Holy Spirit here with me. I have God watching over me.
Whats there to fear?
Yes, I know everybody is saying how low my pay is.
But if this is the will of God, I will obey.


I shall end off with a verse to encourage everybody. :) Something that pull through my day:

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."
1 Corinthians 10:13

God will make a way where there seems to be no way. :)
Amen.


Thank You Lord Jesus,
I'll learn through these trials you've placed me in,
to be that Expensive Vase,
and when that day comes,
I'll give all glory to Jesus,
and this blog...
will be my evidence of your Kindness, Goodness and Mercy :)