Committing and Surrendering

I've been completely stressed out these days.
or maybe, I still am.
So I've been taught, every time these things happen, when things go upside down leave you spinning around, you commit them all to Jesus.

but, I think the best part I've learnt is not just committing, but surrendering.

Difference between committing and surrendering?
committing - to entrust, especially for safekeeping; commend
surrendering - to give oneself up, as into the power of another; submit or yield.
credits to http://www.dictionary.com/

From dictionary.com, we can clearly see what it means to commit.
when you COMMIT, you just merely trust, and you COMMIT something into Jesus's hands.
But when you SURRENDER, you really give Jesus your everything, you submit yourself before Him and just tell Him: Jesus, take control.

I feel that these few weeks it has been rather tormentful, be it spiritually emotionally or physically. I've been so tired these days, and I just feel like leading an aimless life.
Yes, aimless. I feel like just stoning at a vase of flowers, or watching gossip girl 24 hours and just slack my life. ROT AT HOME.

and I've been praying to God, Oh Lord, I commit this this this into your hands, help me please.

and today, finally, the Holy Spirit convicted me...
He told me, do you just want to commit all these tiny things into God's hand, or do you want to completely surrender before Him.

and I was like yes... I've been complaining to God about all these things, committing all my problems into His hands but I believe God wants more than just that.
He is happy that we trust in Him enough to commit our problems to His hands, but thats not it! He wants us to fully surrender our lives to Him.
A complete surrender into His hands and let Jesus take control over our lives.

And now, as I blogged, I'm even more convinced to say,
God, I surrender my life into Your hands.
Deal with it.